I miss you .

i just feel like saying something.
ahhahahahs .
i guess people dont really know me.
im all cheerful and stuff outside but ,
they dont know the pain, sadness or anger inside of me.
i guess bestie does but only some.
well bestie is xbox-ing with isaac, bestie's cousin.
haiz .
at least bestie promised me gummies ;DDDD
that cheers me up by alot i suppose.

i shall go talk to my cookie monster now.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

to her:
dont feel bad about anything.
its not your fault at all.
i dont know how to phrase this
but you are not the cause of this.
i know you read my blog so im blogging to you now.
dont feel bad at all.
its just destiny i guess.
we were meant to be kor and mei.
nothing else.
you are not blamed for this.
dont blame yourself either

& i want to scream out loud but i cant. it feels all contained inside.i cant help but scream on the inside.but it just does not come out. i feel frustrated. very very frustrated. i know that many people care for me. kiah, clarisse, nisha, nicoleTAY, ericaLOW, euniceLEE but i just cant seem to open up to them. im really sorry if i have been short tempered or anything towards you guys. but i just feel all bottled up. haiz.